Every time I go to make a new post and see it's been a while since the last one I think that I really need to make an effort to do this more often and be more consistent.
But I'm giving up on that. This is supposed to be fun, so I'm not going to allow it to be another "chore" to do. I figure I'll post when I can, as I know you all understand.
And really, my life isn't that interesting, so there aren't always new and fun things to share.
My staph infection has taken me out of the game for a while, but I'm on day 6 and feeling a little better. It's still sore, and gets worse as the day goes on since I'm back and work, but much better than what I was.
A co-worker of mine told me she saw a news story about a recent MRSA "outbreak". I believe it!
We're getting ready for Halloween, and I can't wait to post pictures. I just love both of the kid's costumes.
And, as a big kid myself, what's not to love about going door-to-door for candy?
Only problem is, this year Myles is big enough to be aware of how much candy he has and question why so much is missing. And I don't just mean because Derrick and I eat it after they go to bed, although that is also true.
As a sidenote, I have to laugh when I sneak something I don't want the kids to have when they are sleeping and I'll hear Myles get up after a while and walk down the hall. Don't you know I hide it in the couch and chew real quick? It's like when you were a kid and tried to hide it from your parents, only now I'm hiding it from my kids.
Anyway, I digress. I have decided this year that I have to get rid of the Halloween candy as quickly as possible as I don't even want to hear the constant whining and begging for candy. I intended to bring it into work (and maybe even share it....just kidding)...but I know he'll be on to it. I just don't know if I care yet or not.
I'm thinking of letting him trade his candy for a toy or book or something. But he is my kid. That may not be a good switch. lol
We're keeping TOT short this year though, which could be a good thing. Our church is having a harvest party that starts at 7, and we're looking forward to that.
Everything else is going good. Derrick is still really enjoying Bruegger's and continues to work about 70-75 hours a week, with the longest days on Tuesday and Wednesday, but at least for right now it works.
Oh...a couple of funny's to share before I go. Myles is trying to spread his love of "blue pants" with Gina. He now begs for her to be able to wear them too. I let him pick out her outfit today, and when she was dressed he said "Gina, you look fabulous".
I was laughing too hard to be scared of the fact my boy said "fabulous".
I've shared with you all multiple times about Gina's love for a good baby wipe. Cindy has to hide them at her house as she tries to be sneaky and take them if she's not looking.
So anyway, we were discussing Christmas with each other (I know, I know) and deciding if we were going to do a gift exchange with the kids. I told her Gina is at a hard age to buy for because how many dolls does one girl really need, ya know?
Cindy said, "I already decided I'm just getting her a 5 pack of wipes".
Too funny.
She was kidding of course, but she'd actually probably like it better than anything else we'll get.
Those kids. They are nothing if not entertaining.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Our newest "investment"
*****Update*****
Derrick got home from work and went to let Max out and he was NOT BARKING!! Yay! This is such a big deal! The kids and I took him for a walk since Derrick had to go back to work and he did great. And they all got some energy out.
Mom, this was our neighbor to the left, actually it was the brother of one of those guys. However, the main guy next door came over to apologize to Derrick and they talked for a while, and then as I was getting ready to start the walk the yeller man pulled up and got out of his car. I was a little nervous, but he actually apologized for the way he handled it too and admited essentially that he has temper problems. Ya think? But anyway, he was very nice to all of us (and Max), so at least there isn't that weirdness anymore.
And if Max can keep this up it's going to be so awesome! I really think he was smart enough to learn from just those two times!
I was just thinking that this post deserves pictures, so I'm going to try to take one tonight to post at a later time so you get the full effect.
But here's the story behind our latest purchase.
We had an unfortunate "run -in" with our neighbors early Sunday morning over Max's barking.
Now, as a sidenote, let me just say this.
I DO totally get being angry over a dog barking. Really. And we try to be very aware of it and sensitive to it, as Max does have a crazy loud bark. So I get that it could wake up a neighbor or be disturbing. And I completely understand wanting to let the dog owner know it's not acceptable.
But what I don't think is necessary is literally getting in Derrick's face and screaming the "f word" over and over while Myles is standing RIGHT there. Fortunately, as intuitive as he is, this hasn't raised any questions or use of the word...yet.
On this particular morning we had JUST let Max out, so he had to have come over on the first bark he heard.
Regardless, the situation obviously needs to be handled. We talked seriously again about giving him to a new family, especially with our impending move on the horizon. I just can't bare to see him put down if he ended up in a shelter, so I'd want to know he was going to a good home.
As a last resort we did a little research and decided to get a bark collar. That was a memorable trip to Petsmart, let me tell ya.
So, we got home and I (perhaps a little too excitedly) put Max in a room and shut the door. He barked. And barked. Nothing.
Ugh.
So I took it off, re-read the manual, repositioned it and tried again. I put him back in the room.
He barked.
Then he yelped. (yay it works. is that the wrong reaction? LOL)
He barked again.
Then he yelped again.
AND HE HASN'T BARKED SINCE!!!!!
I think it's really working!!! The hardest part of it is the little metal probes have to stay in the exact right spot to work and it shifts easily, but it does work if it stays in place.
This morning I let him out and then put him in his room and NO BARKING!
Last night the doorbell on the tv rang and he did bark twice. There was no yelping, but he did also stop barking.
So we'll see. But I already dislike him a little less. (I've never been the biggest fan of this dog).
So cross your fingers for us. I hope this is the answer. Because there is no way we can take him to an apartment with this bark. I think the next couple of days will be the true test to see if he learns to "out smart it" if it keeps slipping.
But if it works, it's the best investment we've made in a while.
Derrick got home from work and went to let Max out and he was NOT BARKING!! Yay! This is such a big deal! The kids and I took him for a walk since Derrick had to go back to work and he did great. And they all got some energy out.
Mom, this was our neighbor to the left, actually it was the brother of one of those guys. However, the main guy next door came over to apologize to Derrick and they talked for a while, and then as I was getting ready to start the walk the yeller man pulled up and got out of his car. I was a little nervous, but he actually apologized for the way he handled it too and admited essentially that he has temper problems. Ya think? But anyway, he was very nice to all of us (and Max), so at least there isn't that weirdness anymore.
And if Max can keep this up it's going to be so awesome! I really think he was smart enough to learn from just those two times!
I was just thinking that this post deserves pictures, so I'm going to try to take one tonight to post at a later time so you get the full effect.
But here's the story behind our latest purchase.
We had an unfortunate "run -in" with our neighbors early Sunday morning over Max's barking.
Now, as a sidenote, let me just say this.
I DO totally get being angry over a dog barking. Really. And we try to be very aware of it and sensitive to it, as Max does have a crazy loud bark. So I get that it could wake up a neighbor or be disturbing. And I completely understand wanting to let the dog owner know it's not acceptable.
But what I don't think is necessary is literally getting in Derrick's face and screaming the "f word" over and over while Myles is standing RIGHT there. Fortunately, as intuitive as he is, this hasn't raised any questions or use of the word...yet.
On this particular morning we had JUST let Max out, so he had to have come over on the first bark he heard.
Regardless, the situation obviously needs to be handled. We talked seriously again about giving him to a new family, especially with our impending move on the horizon. I just can't bare to see him put down if he ended up in a shelter, so I'd want to know he was going to a good home.
As a last resort we did a little research and decided to get a bark collar. That was a memorable trip to Petsmart, let me tell ya.
So, we got home and I (perhaps a little too excitedly) put Max in a room and shut the door. He barked. And barked. Nothing.
Ugh.
So I took it off, re-read the manual, repositioned it and tried again. I put him back in the room.
He barked.
Then he yelped. (yay it works. is that the wrong reaction? LOL)
He barked again.
Then he yelped again.
AND HE HASN'T BARKED SINCE!!!!!
I think it's really working!!! The hardest part of it is the little metal probes have to stay in the exact right spot to work and it shifts easily, but it does work if it stays in place.
This morning I let him out and then put him in his room and NO BARKING!
Last night the doorbell on the tv rang and he did bark twice. There was no yelping, but he did also stop barking.
So we'll see. But I already dislike him a little less. (I've never been the biggest fan of this dog).
So cross your fingers for us. I hope this is the answer. Because there is no way we can take him to an apartment with this bark. I think the next couple of days will be the true test to see if he learns to "out smart it" if it keeps slipping.
But if it works, it's the best investment we've made in a while.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Just updates....
The kids and I have all been suffering from allergies for the past week or so, and I'm happy to say that today I'm finally feeling a little better. It's been awful and making me miserable.
Myles has been doing great with his reward chart and things seem much calmer and less stressful in the Lawary household.
We had bought a package of balloons for Gina's birthday and he has since learned how to blow up a balloon all on his own. It's like his favorite toy now! (I guess I shoudln't mention that he also figured out that if you blow it up and let it go it will fly around the room, huh?)
Gina is still learning new words and new meanings for her existing words. I'm proud to say that today she pointed at Derrick's shoes on the floor and said "UP!!" and pointed to the closet. Uh, huh, that's my girl!!
She also knows "uh-oh" which is really cute, and is learning the word for balloon (since they often go flying past her). She is starting to call the dogs by names, in her own way. Max and Myles are "Ma" and My", she doesn't say much about Sophie.
She has also begun to love coloring. She's so funny laying on the floor on her belly with her feet up like a big kid.
Derrick is still in the training portion of his new job, but absolutely loving everything about it. It's been such a positive change for us.
And I never feel like I have exciting updates about myself. I do have a Beth Moore bible study meeting tonight, but I think I'll be missing it so the kids and I can catch up on our sleep. It's just been the normal routine for me!
Myles has been doing great with his reward chart and things seem much calmer and less stressful in the Lawary household.
We had bought a package of balloons for Gina's birthday and he has since learned how to blow up a balloon all on his own. It's like his favorite toy now! (I guess I shoudln't mention that he also figured out that if you blow it up and let it go it will fly around the room, huh?)
Gina is still learning new words and new meanings for her existing words. I'm proud to say that today she pointed at Derrick's shoes on the floor and said "UP!!" and pointed to the closet. Uh, huh, that's my girl!!
She also knows "uh-oh" which is really cute, and is learning the word for balloon (since they often go flying past her). She is starting to call the dogs by names, in her own way. Max and Myles are "Ma" and My", she doesn't say much about Sophie.
She has also begun to love coloring. She's so funny laying on the floor on her belly with her feet up like a big kid.
Derrick is still in the training portion of his new job, but absolutely loving everything about it. It's been such a positive change for us.
And I never feel like I have exciting updates about myself. I do have a Beth Moore bible study meeting tonight, but I think I'll be missing it so the kids and I can catch up on our sleep. It's just been the normal routine for me!
Monday, October 13, 2008
80's in October?
Who would have thought? The weather this weekend has been beautiful!! Of course, as happens every year at this time, all of our allergies are going crazy. Cincinnati is known to be a bad place for allergy suffers, and it's holding true this year, but that didn't stop us from having fun.
The kids and I went to the pumpkin farm with mom and dad on Saturday, we had a quick visit on Sunday, and we saw Mom again today for a quick trip to the mall before Myles' appt with our favorite Dr. Joe.
Dr. Joe was so impressed with Myles and told me to make sure I give him a sticker when we get home. Myles was so nice and polite and answered all of his questions. Myles also got the flu mist, so now both kids are protected. And after getting the flu this march, I'll be sure to get my flu shot as well! (Do they do the mist for adults?????) lol
We got home just as a listing appt on the house was ending, and Gina took a short nap. We then went shopping, on an unsucessful mission for some new shirts for me, and then stopped to get pizza and came home to watch Toy Story. Myles has just discovered Buzz Lightyear and is all about him.
Myles has picture day at school tomorrow, and a field trip coming up, so I have all of his school forms filled out (pre-school is just homework for the parents!) and I am ready to sit down with my tissues and a snack and RELAX.
The kids and I went to the pumpkin farm with mom and dad on Saturday, we had a quick visit on Sunday, and we saw Mom again today for a quick trip to the mall before Myles' appt with our favorite Dr. Joe.
Dr. Joe was so impressed with Myles and told me to make sure I give him a sticker when we get home. Myles was so nice and polite and answered all of his questions. Myles also got the flu mist, so now both kids are protected. And after getting the flu this march, I'll be sure to get my flu shot as well! (Do they do the mist for adults?????) lol
We got home just as a listing appt on the house was ending, and Gina took a short nap. We then went shopping, on an unsucessful mission for some new shirts for me, and then stopped to get pizza and came home to watch Toy Story. Myles has just discovered Buzz Lightyear and is all about him.
Myles has picture day at school tomorrow, and a field trip coming up, so I have all of his school forms filled out (pre-school is just homework for the parents!) and I am ready to sit down with my tissues and a snack and RELAX.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
A disciple goes out
That was the theme of the message in church today. It's been a 4 part series about what discipleship means, and it's been interesting.
Today's lesson was a disciple goes out...to serve and be a part of the community. The Vineyard Church as a whole is very into giving back and doing things for the community...just as a way to share God's love.
So yesterday he was commenting on how many people go to church on Sunday's and play their role well, yet don't live it out during the week. Some even go on mission trips, yet come home and lead a life unchanged from that before they left. A disciple should go out into the community to serve, to help, and to share God's love.
So, when he said we were all "going out" today you could hear and feel that "whaattt???" vibe in the air.
But it was the neatest thing. They had already pre-arranged several "outings" in the community, and they cut the message short and asked each of us to join one.
The youth did a free car wash, there was a group handing out bags of candy at a local business, another passing out bottles of water, one pumping gas for people, and the group Derrick and I decided to join visited a local nursing home.
It was slightly outside my comfort zone, but I had to admit...this church practices what they preach. We just did a quick 30-45 minute visit and talked with people and handed out flowers. I can't say I have any especially fitting or touching stories to share about how we changed someone's life....but isn't that the point?
The people you meet are not by accident. God orchestrates all of that. He leads you down certain paths. It's about what YOU choose to do that makes the difference.
And you just never know when something you've done, or said, has a positive impact on someone else. That's why being a disciple is about talking the talk and walking the walk...every day.
Today's lesson was a disciple goes out...to serve and be a part of the community. The Vineyard Church as a whole is very into giving back and doing things for the community...just as a way to share God's love.
So yesterday he was commenting on how many people go to church on Sunday's and play their role well, yet don't live it out during the week. Some even go on mission trips, yet come home and lead a life unchanged from that before they left. A disciple should go out into the community to serve, to help, and to share God's love.
So, when he said we were all "going out" today you could hear and feel that "whaattt???" vibe in the air.
But it was the neatest thing. They had already pre-arranged several "outings" in the community, and they cut the message short and asked each of us to join one.
The youth did a free car wash, there was a group handing out bags of candy at a local business, another passing out bottles of water, one pumping gas for people, and the group Derrick and I decided to join visited a local nursing home.
It was slightly outside my comfort zone, but I had to admit...this church practices what they preach. We just did a quick 30-45 minute visit and talked with people and handed out flowers. I can't say I have any especially fitting or touching stories to share about how we changed someone's life....but isn't that the point?
The people you meet are not by accident. God orchestrates all of that. He leads you down certain paths. It's about what YOU choose to do that makes the difference.
And you just never know when something you've done, or said, has a positive impact on someone else. That's why being a disciple is about talking the talk and walking the walk...every day.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Happy Birthday, Baby Girl!
Happy 2nd Birthday to my sweet baby girl. Hard to believe a full 2 years has passed. In some ways it seems like I just had you, and in other ways it's hard to imagine there was a time you weren't in my life.
When you were born October 9, 2006 at 8:11 am my life was forever enriched. You completed our family and filled that space in my heart that had always desired to have a daughter.
You are more than I could have ever dreamed you to be. You are sweet, funny, sassy, and smart. Your cheesy smile makes my day and your hugs and kisses melt my heart. I love the little game you play to "give kisses" when you just move you're mouth like you're chewing.
It makes me sad that you aren't my tiny little infant anymore, but I also look forward to continuing to watch you change and grow into the person God made you to be.
You are such a blessing to everyone that knows you and I know you are going to do great things.
I love you sweet girl.
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When you were born October 9, 2006 at 8:11 am my life was forever enriched. You completed our family and filled that space in my heart that had always desired to have a daughter.
You are more than I could have ever dreamed you to be. You are sweet, funny, sassy, and smart. Your cheesy smile makes my day and your hugs and kisses melt my heart. I love the little game you play to "give kisses" when you just move you're mouth like you're chewing.
It makes me sad that you aren't my tiny little infant anymore, but I also look forward to continuing to watch you change and grow into the person God made you to be.
You are such a blessing to everyone that knows you and I know you are going to do great things.
I love you sweet girl.
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Friday, October 3, 2008
Friday Friday!!
Yay!!
I'm just glad this week is over. It's been a long one it seems.
Myles has a reward chart started and for every 10 stickers he gets he earns one-on-one time with one of us to do something special. We started last week and he's up to 9 stickers, so I bet this weekend we'll be having some special time.
For some reason my computer at home is not recognizing the mouse anymore and I've tried a new one with no luck, so I may not be online all weekend if I can't get that figured out.
So if you don't hear from me, that's why.
On Monday I plan on taking the kids to the mall and getting Gina's 2 year pictures taken, so wish me luck with that. It seems like that's always a fiasco.
We had another showing on the house today and I did call and chat with the real estate agent to get an update from her, and everything seems to be proceeding fairly well, considering the process. It is depressing to consider what the house could sell for, but I know that's also just a sign of the times. It's amazing when we drive home how many houses are for sale just on our street, let alone the neighborhood.
Derrick's job is still going really well though, and for us personally, things are really beginning to fall into place and come together.
Hope you all have a good weekend. I'll chat with you Tuesday if I can't get the home computer figured out!
See ya!
I'm just glad this week is over. It's been a long one it seems.
Myles has a reward chart started and for every 10 stickers he gets he earns one-on-one time with one of us to do something special. We started last week and he's up to 9 stickers, so I bet this weekend we'll be having some special time.
For some reason my computer at home is not recognizing the mouse anymore and I've tried a new one with no luck, so I may not be online all weekend if I can't get that figured out.
So if you don't hear from me, that's why.
On Monday I plan on taking the kids to the mall and getting Gina's 2 year pictures taken, so wish me luck with that. It seems like that's always a fiasco.
We had another showing on the house today and I did call and chat with the real estate agent to get an update from her, and everything seems to be proceeding fairly well, considering the process. It is depressing to consider what the house could sell for, but I know that's also just a sign of the times. It's amazing when we drive home how many houses are for sale just on our street, let alone the neighborhood.
Derrick's job is still going really well though, and for us personally, things are really beginning to fall into place and come together.
Hope you all have a good weekend. I'll chat with you Tuesday if I can't get the home computer figured out!
See ya!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Saying hello
I can't believe it's been so long since I've updated. It doesn't feel like it's been that long.
Guess time flies when you're having fun. Let's see. What's new with all of us:
Me-not much new. Working on getting things "organized". I put a rewards chart together for Myles that is going great, we are doing all of the details in terms of getting our new finances and budget together (opening savings accounts, filling out paperwork to start his insurance and cancel mine, etc), and I haven't done even one days worth of homework for the bible study that meets again tomorrow. Still trying to recruit new Avon customers. lol
Derrick-has completed one week at his new job and loves it. The people are great-very nice, very helpful, just a much better environment. Staying busy with both jobs and enjoying a lot more quality family time together.
Myles-enjoying school. He's been doing great and really seems to like it. Tomorrow is show and tell and they are bringing something that starts with the letter L. Thanks to g-ma, we thought of the idea of bringing Lincoln Logs, although he heard her say Lego's and is set on that and he doesn't have any.
He's really responding to his rewards chart and it's making a difference. We just have to work on getting him a little more consistent with eating and sleeping. His doctor would like to see him return to occupational therapy for the sensory issues, but to a different treatment facility (which unfortunately isn't covered by our insurance). So we'll see about that.
He loves to paint and is working on writing his name.
Gina-getting big. Seriously. I looked at her today as I was dressing her and had one of those "when did you get so big" moments. She has really been enjoying baby dolls, barbies and "pretend mommy" toys...strollers, etc. But her favorite toy of all is still wipes.
She's learning new words...on, in, buckle, bad (heard me say it to Max ..I promise), bath, out..that's all I can think of. She is just super sweet and I can't believe it's only a week until her 2nd birthday!!
Oh...and she's not a fan of this colder weather we've been having in the mornings...she shakes like a leaf when we're getting in the car!
I think that's about it. Things are going remarkably well and surprisingly calm over all. It's such a nice change of pace.
Guess time flies when you're having fun. Let's see. What's new with all of us:
Me-not much new. Working on getting things "organized". I put a rewards chart together for Myles that is going great, we are doing all of the details in terms of getting our new finances and budget together (opening savings accounts, filling out paperwork to start his insurance and cancel mine, etc), and I haven't done even one days worth of homework for the bible study that meets again tomorrow. Still trying to recruit new Avon customers. lol
Derrick-has completed one week at his new job and loves it. The people are great-very nice, very helpful, just a much better environment. Staying busy with both jobs and enjoying a lot more quality family time together.
Myles-enjoying school. He's been doing great and really seems to like it. Tomorrow is show and tell and they are bringing something that starts with the letter L. Thanks to g-ma, we thought of the idea of bringing Lincoln Logs, although he heard her say Lego's and is set on that and he doesn't have any.
He's really responding to his rewards chart and it's making a difference. We just have to work on getting him a little more consistent with eating and sleeping. His doctor would like to see him return to occupational therapy for the sensory issues, but to a different treatment facility (which unfortunately isn't covered by our insurance). So we'll see about that.
He loves to paint and is working on writing his name.
Gina-getting big. Seriously. I looked at her today as I was dressing her and had one of those "when did you get so big" moments. She has really been enjoying baby dolls, barbies and "pretend mommy" toys...strollers, etc. But her favorite toy of all is still wipes.
She's learning new words...on, in, buckle, bad (heard me say it to Max ..I promise), bath, out..that's all I can think of. She is just super sweet and I can't believe it's only a week until her 2nd birthday!!
Oh...and she's not a fan of this colder weather we've been having in the mornings...she shakes like a leaf when we're getting in the car!
I think that's about it. Things are going remarkably well and surprisingly calm over all. It's such a nice change of pace.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Random Thoughts
Random thoughts for a random day. Derrick's first day went really well. Great actually. He worked 5-2 and then 3-9. Better him than me is all I can say! I don't know if I could do it!
Today we have another long day. He works until 3 and then I'm leaving early to take Myles to an appt. at 4:30. So we'll swing by and pick up Gina and bring her to daddy while we do that.
Then I have my second night of bible study tonight at 6. Hopefully I don't miss much, if any of that. It was cancelled last week due to the power outages and I missed a big part of it the week before that.
I'm looking forward to that. To the fellowship time it brings and to a time dedicated to getting closer to God.
It's funny, these last couple of days we've had some really postive changes, yet I just feel, well, blah. I've had some struggles lately with Myles and some things going on with work have just left me feeling sort of low and defensive. Misunderstood. I think we all have times like that.
The good part is I know God is with me, and I know I can turn this all over to him. I know that through him I can be restored, re-energized, and lifted up. It's just a matter of taking the time to lower the wall I've built around myself and spend some much needed time with him.
I am having some revelations about myself through this expereince though. I've realized the past few months have made me skeptical. I'm cautious to fully accept good news for fear that there is a "catch". I've become doubtful of people and less trusting.
This is such a crazy time in our world with everything happening in the economy, the potential bailout plan, etc it feels like everything is just a little haywire.
What I've realized though is I kept thinking things would be smoother "when". When Derrick found a job. When we settled on an apartment. When we got moved. When the house is settled. Now that one of those "whens" has happened I think I'm realizing that there will always be more.
Always something else left undone or uncertain. That's why it's even more important to enjoy every season in life and not let anyone steal our joy, right?
Somehow today just feels like it should be a cloudy, cold, grey day so that I could have stayed home and in bed all day just curled up and licking my wounds, but it's a beautiful sunny day today.
So, I think I'll spend some time at lunch talking to God and getting my thoughts together.....
Today we have another long day. He works until 3 and then I'm leaving early to take Myles to an appt. at 4:30. So we'll swing by and pick up Gina and bring her to daddy while we do that.
Then I have my second night of bible study tonight at 6. Hopefully I don't miss much, if any of that. It was cancelled last week due to the power outages and I missed a big part of it the week before that.
I'm looking forward to that. To the fellowship time it brings and to a time dedicated to getting closer to God.
It's funny, these last couple of days we've had some really postive changes, yet I just feel, well, blah. I've had some struggles lately with Myles and some things going on with work have just left me feeling sort of low and defensive. Misunderstood. I think we all have times like that.
The good part is I know God is with me, and I know I can turn this all over to him. I know that through him I can be restored, re-energized, and lifted up. It's just a matter of taking the time to lower the wall I've built around myself and spend some much needed time with him.
I am having some revelations about myself through this expereince though. I've realized the past few months have made me skeptical. I'm cautious to fully accept good news for fear that there is a "catch". I've become doubtful of people and less trusting.
This is such a crazy time in our world with everything happening in the economy, the potential bailout plan, etc it feels like everything is just a little haywire.
What I've realized though is I kept thinking things would be smoother "when". When Derrick found a job. When we settled on an apartment. When we got moved. When the house is settled. Now that one of those "whens" has happened I think I'm realizing that there will always be more.
Always something else left undone or uncertain. That's why it's even more important to enjoy every season in life and not let anyone steal our joy, right?
Somehow today just feels like it should be a cloudy, cold, grey day so that I could have stayed home and in bed all day just curled up and licking my wounds, but it's a beautiful sunny day today.
So, I think I'll spend some time at lunch talking to God and getting my thoughts together.....
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Wednesday is the day!!!
Wednesday is Derrick's first day on the job.
Let's just all be silent for a moment and reflect on the awesomeness of that statement.
Huge exhale.
Enough said.
Let's just all be silent for a moment and reflect on the awesomeness of that statement.
Huge exhale.
Enough said.
What a day and TMJ
We had a hectic day yesterday. Myles and I had dentist appointments together. Loads of fun there, huh?
He actually did really well. Got right in the chair and was an AWESOME patient. I was a proud mom. Unfortunately, he does have two cavities. How embarassing. She did tell me though that we could not have prevented them, it is just his anatomy and the way his teeth are. That made me feel slightly better.
Me on the other hand? I'm sure I set o record of some sort, but not the kind you want to set. I have a mouth FULL of cavities. None can be sen or felt yet, they are all in between my teeth. And it's from not flossing. I'm sorry, but I HATE flossing. BUT, the fact I now have an 1800 dollar dental bill heading my way when I get this work done may be just what I need to change my mind about that. Thank GOD Derrick's job offers dental insurance. That will help. But when you need to make three appointments to go back and get fillings done, it is NOT a good sign.
ANd, my TMJ has ben bothering me a lot lately. I didn't even know I hsad it until a few years ago, but I've bee having a lot of jaw pain and getting a lot of headaches lately. Not cool. And "opening wide" for 45 minutes while my teeth were being cleaned did not help. She did give me a couple of suggestions, but basically said I'd just need to see someone that specializes in that area as it can be very complicated.
I don't know why it hasn't bothered me until recently, but maybe it';s like everything in life. Once you start getting older everything hurts worse. lol
Mom... Dad....which one of you can I blame bad teeth and TMJ on?? Just kidding!!!
After that Derrick and I had a few erronds to run. It was torture. I wonder if I left one of my kids out in public one day if they'd know how to find their way home. Oh wait. Did I just say that??
Goodness gracious they can drive me crazy though. I love them dearly, but they are like oil and water. They do not mix. Separately they are the best kids you could hope to meet. Together?? Together they get left with their daddy a lot while I go to a different part of the store and act like I don't know any of them! lol
If I could just get Gina to stop shouting mommy every time she sees me I might be able to pull it off. The little rascal.
AS soon as we got home Derrick had to go to work. By the time I got dinner and laundry done I had HAD it. That was the kind of day you need to go look at them while they are sleeping and seem so cute and peaceful.
He actually did really well. Got right in the chair and was an AWESOME patient. I was a proud mom. Unfortunately, he does have two cavities. How embarassing. She did tell me though that we could not have prevented them, it is just his anatomy and the way his teeth are. That made me feel slightly better.
Me on the other hand? I'm sure I set o record of some sort, but not the kind you want to set. I have a mouth FULL of cavities. None can be sen or felt yet, they are all in between my teeth. And it's from not flossing. I'm sorry, but I HATE flossing. BUT, the fact I now have an 1800 dollar dental bill heading my way when I get this work done may be just what I need to change my mind about that. Thank GOD Derrick's job offers dental insurance. That will help. But when you need to make three appointments to go back and get fillings done, it is NOT a good sign.
ANd, my TMJ has ben bothering me a lot lately. I didn't even know I hsad it until a few years ago, but I've bee having a lot of jaw pain and getting a lot of headaches lately. Not cool. And "opening wide" for 45 minutes while my teeth were being cleaned did not help. She did give me a couple of suggestions, but basically said I'd just need to see someone that specializes in that area as it can be very complicated.
I don't know why it hasn't bothered me until recently, but maybe it';s like everything in life. Once you start getting older everything hurts worse. lol
Mom... Dad....which one of you can I blame bad teeth and TMJ on?? Just kidding!!!
After that Derrick and I had a few erronds to run. It was torture. I wonder if I left one of my kids out in public one day if they'd know how to find their way home. Oh wait. Did I just say that??
Goodness gracious they can drive me crazy though. I love them dearly, but they are like oil and water. They do not mix. Separately they are the best kids you could hope to meet. Together?? Together they get left with their daddy a lot while I go to a different part of the store and act like I don't know any of them! lol
If I could just get Gina to stop shouting mommy every time she sees me I might be able to pull it off. The little rascal.
AS soon as we got home Derrick had to go to work. By the time I got dinner and laundry done I had HAD it. That was the kind of day you need to go look at them while they are sleeping and seem so cute and peaceful.
So, Outback is OUT!
I know I'm not the only one that has noticed that this restaurant is ALWAYS crowded. No matter when you go. So it has to be good, right?
I received a gift certificate at work a few months back to go. Derrick and I decided that we would hold on to it until he got a job, and then we would go together and celebrate. Without the kids.
BUT, you all know me too well for that, right?
We did wait until he had a job, but...I pushed him into going last Friday...the day we found out. And, it was awful. Really. We waited forever, got a terrible server, and then waited forever again for our food. When it did come it was all hard, overcooked and just gross. Even Gina pushed it away and said yuck. You know it's bad when she won't even eat it. She's like Mikey. She'll eat anything.
The manager ended up comping our entire meal (well, minus my Wallabe Darned...but that was so good it was okay). So, we still had the gift certificate to use. So, tonight I pushed Derrick into going again and just choosing a different location. So we went to the one in Northagte instead.
It started out good. No wait, great server. But then Gina's diaper leaked. Why does this ONLY happen in public and never at home? I mean really?? So I sent Derrick out to the car for the diaper bag (at least we had it) and took Gna to the bathroom , with Myles tagging along. Of course.
So we get in the bathroom and everything goes pitch black. No one seems to notice but me, and Myles and I'm wondering why no one else seems to notice. Isn't that a pretty big thing??
So we finish up our business in the dark (good time) and go out to the restaurant. They have lost power. Seriously folks.
At this point we only have our drinks and the bloomin Onion. (And I didn't even get my Wallabe Darned this time!!!) All of the other servers are just telling their tables that they can leave...even the ones sthat have clearly eated and were ready to pay. But not our server. She was no where to be found. When we do find her she tells me she'll manually add up the bill and be back to us. ???? Seriously? for a Coke Myles spilled on the way to the bathroom, and a glass of water and an appetizer we didn't get to eat)SO I told her we had a gift card, could she even ring it up? She said if they couldn't she could manually take down the information and then ring it in when the power did come up.
Honestly.
So the rest of the story is between me, Derrick and God, and I will just leave the ended up to your imagination so it's not in writing. lol
Anyone want a 44 dollar gift card to Outback??? (yes, my drink cost 6 dollars, and I'd do it again!!!) (And yes, I do still have it for the full amount minus the drink I got the first time).
Guess that kind of gives away the ending, huh? lol
I received a gift certificate at work a few months back to go. Derrick and I decided that we would hold on to it until he got a job, and then we would go together and celebrate. Without the kids.
BUT, you all know me too well for that, right?
We did wait until he had a job, but...I pushed him into going last Friday...the day we found out. And, it was awful. Really. We waited forever, got a terrible server, and then waited forever again for our food. When it did come it was all hard, overcooked and just gross. Even Gina pushed it away and said yuck. You know it's bad when she won't even eat it. She's like Mikey. She'll eat anything.
The manager ended up comping our entire meal (well, minus my Wallabe Darned...but that was so good it was okay). So, we still had the gift certificate to use. So, tonight I pushed Derrick into going again and just choosing a different location. So we went to the one in Northagte instead.
It started out good. No wait, great server. But then Gina's diaper leaked. Why does this ONLY happen in public and never at home? I mean really?? So I sent Derrick out to the car for the diaper bag (at least we had it) and took Gna to the bathroom , with Myles tagging along. Of course.
So we get in the bathroom and everything goes pitch black. No one seems to notice but me, and Myles and I'm wondering why no one else seems to notice. Isn't that a pretty big thing??
So we finish up our business in the dark (good time) and go out to the restaurant. They have lost power. Seriously folks.
At this point we only have our drinks and the bloomin Onion. (And I didn't even get my Wallabe Darned this time!!!) All of the other servers are just telling their tables that they can leave...even the ones sthat have clearly eated and were ready to pay. But not our server. She was no where to be found. When we do find her she tells me she'll manually add up the bill and be back to us. ???? Seriously? for a Coke Myles spilled on the way to the bathroom, and a glass of water and an appetizer we didn't get to eat)SO I told her we had a gift card, could she even ring it up? She said if they couldn't she could manually take down the information and then ring it in when the power did come up.
Honestly.
So the rest of the story is between me, Derrick and God, and I will just leave the ended up to your imagination so it's not in writing. lol
Anyone want a 44 dollar gift card to Outback??? (yes, my drink cost 6 dollars, and I'd do it again!!!) (And yes, I do still have it for the full amount minus the drink I got the first time).
Guess that kind of gives away the ending, huh? lol
Friday, September 19, 2008
Happy Friday!
We're looking forward to the weekend! Derrick is home with the kids today for what could be their last day of "boy time" (with only cute little girls welcome to join them) as he starts his job this Wednesday. After that he'll most likely be off on Sunday's and Monday's, so the kids will start going to the sitters all 4 days (Tues-Fri).
He was going to take them to the zoo, but I think I made him nervous with all my questions regarding his preparedness to do that. I think instead he has decided to take them to Cincinnati Mills where they get to play in the playland, and then they go to the movie theater and Myles plays a few of the games inside. Myles loves it and looks forward to it all week. He collects quarters all week and keeps them in a wallet, and this morning he made sure he asked me where his wallet is...he knows what the day has in store for him!
Plus, I got a fully cooked breakfast before I left! While I do frozen french toast or pancakes for breakfast (if even that) when I have the kids, Derrick always cooks. Eggs, bacon and toast! But usually it's long after I'm gone and I miss out.
But, since Myles found my phone this morning at 5 am and figured out how to use the speed dial function, he called Derrick and my mom to see if they were up. (Sorry mom)! So, Derrick got up early and started cooking, and I got to join them! And I left just in time....just as the kids were starting to fuss at each other!
I think little boys come preprogrammed to know how to irritate the heck out of their sisters. It's amazing.
The other day I got all over Myles for pestering Gina, and Derrick asked why I was being so harsh with him. I told him I was determined to protect her from the big brother harassment! lol He does things just to annoy her, and he does a good job at it.
That being said, maybe Derrick is getting off lucky by not watching them one day a week. !!! :)
So now I'm at work and it is S L O W!!!! No one is here. There's just a few of us, and I already know it's going to be a long day!!!
Tomorrow we have a showing on our house (yay!), and then I'm not sure what we'll do. But we're trying to squeeze in as much family time as we can as once Derrick starts his new job he'll be working 70 hours a week!
Hope you are all having a good friday!!!
He was going to take them to the zoo, but I think I made him nervous with all my questions regarding his preparedness to do that. I think instead he has decided to take them to Cincinnati Mills where they get to play in the playland, and then they go to the movie theater and Myles plays a few of the games inside. Myles loves it and looks forward to it all week. He collects quarters all week and keeps them in a wallet, and this morning he made sure he asked me where his wallet is...he knows what the day has in store for him!
Plus, I got a fully cooked breakfast before I left! While I do frozen french toast or pancakes for breakfast (if even that) when I have the kids, Derrick always cooks. Eggs, bacon and toast! But usually it's long after I'm gone and I miss out.
But, since Myles found my phone this morning at 5 am and figured out how to use the speed dial function, he called Derrick and my mom to see if they were up. (Sorry mom)! So, Derrick got up early and started cooking, and I got to join them! And I left just in time....just as the kids were starting to fuss at each other!
I think little boys come preprogrammed to know how to irritate the heck out of their sisters. It's amazing.
The other day I got all over Myles for pestering Gina, and Derrick asked why I was being so harsh with him. I told him I was determined to protect her from the big brother harassment! lol He does things just to annoy her, and he does a good job at it.
That being said, maybe Derrick is getting off lucky by not watching them one day a week. !!! :)
So now I'm at work and it is S L O W!!!! No one is here. There's just a few of us, and I already know it's going to be a long day!!!
Tomorrow we have a showing on our house (yay!), and then I'm not sure what we'll do. But we're trying to squeeze in as much family time as we can as once Derrick starts his new job he'll be working 70 hours a week!
Hope you are all having a good friday!!!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Still doing our happy dance!
We're still so excited that
DERRICK GOT A JOB!!!!
YAY!!
Things have been a little hectic here with lots going on. I was too nervous to update or even say anything all week last week. We knew it was getting close and I think I wanted it even more than Derrick, if that's possible.
We had our second meeting for our Bible Study last week, and I also had a great talk with our pastor. It was totally unplanned, but very helpful and very cool the way it came about. I think God set it up for us. I ended up missing a big portion of the meeting, but I think it was worth it.
We have our third meeting tomorrow.
Myles finally goes back to school tomorrow after the strong wind storm we had here knocked out everyone's power for so long.
We feel a huge sense of relief, and I am slowly starting to see the plan God has layed out for us. This was the first big piece of the puzzle, and now we can start putting the rest of it together. Slowly but surely we're changing our entire lives for the better.
It's been a long day and night though, and I am ready for bed. Hope you all had a good day!
DERRICK GOT A JOB!!!!
YAY!!
Things have been a little hectic here with lots going on. I was too nervous to update or even say anything all week last week. We knew it was getting close and I think I wanted it even more than Derrick, if that's possible.
We had our second meeting for our Bible Study last week, and I also had a great talk with our pastor. It was totally unplanned, but very helpful and very cool the way it came about. I think God set it up for us. I ended up missing a big portion of the meeting, but I think it was worth it.
We have our third meeting tomorrow.
Myles finally goes back to school tomorrow after the strong wind storm we had here knocked out everyone's power for so long.
We feel a huge sense of relief, and I am slowly starting to see the plan God has layed out for us. This was the first big piece of the puzzle, and now we can start putting the rest of it together. Slowly but surely we're changing our entire lives for the better.
It's been a long day and night though, and I am ready for bed. Hope you all had a good day!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
And on a lighter note....
(maybe this should be under my last post)....
Here are some more fun things happening:
Myles is asleep for the night. At 6 pm. I think the start of school has worn him out.
Gina has been saying "night night" for a while, so I'm gonna go play with her alone (rare circumstance) and then put her to bed.
Derrick is working til 1 am.
Do you know what that will mean? It will be quiet! No noise!! I have never been so sensitive and aware of noise as I have been since I had two kids. Quiet used to go unnoticed to me, or maybe even seem eery. Now I love it. The sound of nothing!!!
Myles has started eating for Cindy again. Finally. It's been a couple months since he's had lunch. But the last two days he ate without gagging.
He's learning the letter O in school and the numbers 0 and 1. He made an octopus yesterday and is looking forward to going back.
Tomorrow is my second night of the Beth Moore bible study and I have all of my "homework" done.
Okay...I'm off to play, do night night and sit alone in a dark room listening to nothing. lol Just kidding. Sort of.
Here are some more fun things happening:
Myles is asleep for the night. At 6 pm. I think the start of school has worn him out.
Gina has been saying "night night" for a while, so I'm gonna go play with her alone (rare circumstance) and then put her to bed.
Derrick is working til 1 am.
Do you know what that will mean? It will be quiet! No noise!! I have never been so sensitive and aware of noise as I have been since I had two kids. Quiet used to go unnoticed to me, or maybe even seem eery. Now I love it. The sound of nothing!!!
Myles has started eating for Cindy again. Finally. It's been a couple months since he's had lunch. But the last two days he ate without gagging.
He's learning the letter O in school and the numbers 0 and 1. He made an octopus yesterday and is looking forward to going back.
Tomorrow is my second night of the Beth Moore bible study and I have all of my "homework" done.
Okay...I'm off to play, do night night and sit alone in a dark room listening to nothing. lol Just kidding. Sort of.
Here is my prayer for tonight.
Or maybe it's just more of a question for you all. Just something I'm struggling with in my heart and thought I'd throw out to you.
When the bible tells us that we need to have complete faith and trust in God, and we really want to do that, yet we still find ourselves asking questions and feeling anxious, how do we rectify that?
How do we get ourselves to the point that we trust in God's plan, his timing, and realize that he has control over everything and stop questioning "what if's" and "whys" and whens"?
Is that something that even people much further down the spiritual journey path continue to work on, or at some point does it just "click"?
It's so easy to do when things are going well, right? Although maybe that's not even the case. How often do we really stop to praise God and thank him for all of the things that do go well in our lives? Or do we just accept it, not even realizing we've just been blessed and go one with our daily routine?
When things feel uncertain or rocky though, it's so easy to question what the plan is and how things will work out. It's true in so many circumstances. Obviously it fits in our case with Derrick looking for a job, and our house being for sale, but that's just one small example.
Why is it so easy to just accept the good things in life with little realization or acknowledgment that it even happened, yet the uncertain or seemingly negative things seem like such a "crisis"?
If we truly believe that our maker holds us in the palm of his hand, that he is the shelter right by our side, and that he guides every step we take along our journey, why do we forsake that in hard times, and fall back on old ways of doubt and fear?
It seems to me as though it would be like holding on to a life preserver while walking on dry, safe land, but panicking and throwing it aside when you get in deep water? Isn't that when we need to hold on the tightest?
For God *is* our life preserver, isn't he? So why do we cast him aside and start feeling negative about the path we're on just because it isn't all smooth sailing?
God, I ask you to hold on to me even during the times I unconciously am trying to cast you aside. Please know that I want to grow with you and learn to trust you during good times and bad. Help me learn to recognize and praise you for the good things in life, and to look at anything I may view as negative through different eyes.
I know that through you anything is possible. Even something that may seem impossible to us.
On this 7th anniversary of the eve of 9/11 please be with all of those that were affected by that tragic day, and with everyone that has since been affected by the after effects.
God, I know you can take the bad things this world throws at us and use them for good. Help us all to see that good a little more often, God.
When the bible tells us that we need to have complete faith and trust in God, and we really want to do that, yet we still find ourselves asking questions and feeling anxious, how do we rectify that?
How do we get ourselves to the point that we trust in God's plan, his timing, and realize that he has control over everything and stop questioning "what if's" and "whys" and whens"?
Is that something that even people much further down the spiritual journey path continue to work on, or at some point does it just "click"?
It's so easy to do when things are going well, right? Although maybe that's not even the case. How often do we really stop to praise God and thank him for all of the things that do go well in our lives? Or do we just accept it, not even realizing we've just been blessed and go one with our daily routine?
When things feel uncertain or rocky though, it's so easy to question what the plan is and how things will work out. It's true in so many circumstances. Obviously it fits in our case with Derrick looking for a job, and our house being for sale, but that's just one small example.
Why is it so easy to just accept the good things in life with little realization or acknowledgment that it even happened, yet the uncertain or seemingly negative things seem like such a "crisis"?
If we truly believe that our maker holds us in the palm of his hand, that he is the shelter right by our side, and that he guides every step we take along our journey, why do we forsake that in hard times, and fall back on old ways of doubt and fear?
It seems to me as though it would be like holding on to a life preserver while walking on dry, safe land, but panicking and throwing it aside when you get in deep water? Isn't that when we need to hold on the tightest?
For God *is* our life preserver, isn't he? So why do we cast him aside and start feeling negative about the path we're on just because it isn't all smooth sailing?
God, I ask you to hold on to me even during the times I unconciously am trying to cast you aside. Please know that I want to grow with you and learn to trust you during good times and bad. Help me learn to recognize and praise you for the good things in life, and to look at anything I may view as negative through different eyes.
I know that through you anything is possible. Even something that may seem impossible to us.
On this 7th anniversary of the eve of 9/11 please be with all of those that were affected by that tragic day, and with everyone that has since been affected by the after effects.
God, I know you can take the bad things this world throws at us and use them for good. Help us all to see that good a little more often, God.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
What will you be able to say?
That is a question I've been thinking about since we left church. It was another upbeat and inspirational service with another singer who nearly had me in tears with her voice and her message.
And the pastor was discussing that he wants this church, our church, to be about changing lives. To get involved with each other to "do life" and make it better...and inspire real changes.
But considering the bible says we were not put here to be served, but to serve, it's not just about those of us inside the church. It's about reaching out to others and helping to change their lives.
So, one day when you're hanging out with Jesus and he asks you "what did you do with your time on earth", what will you be able to say??
If you're anything like me, it made me realize that much like the song that was sung today said "I've wasted so much time, but I want to turn it all around".
I want to set a vision for my life...who I'd like to be as a wife and a mother, what I believe success is, and launch a plan to get there. I want to not be afraid to try something "in case it doesn't work". I don't want to believe the lies the enemy tells me. My eyes are slowly opening to what happiness means to me, and I want to learn to enjoy every minute. I'm going to stop saying I'll "try" to do something and say I *will* do something. You either do or you do not. There is no try. Even if you fail, you still did it.
As I was sitting there listening, I realized I don't want to limit myself to doing something a specific way or being a certain way because that's how someone else did it. It doesn't matter how our friends, our neighbors, our siblings, our parents, or anyone else does something. We don't need to parent the same way, be a spouse the same way, or reach for the same level of success. We are all different...we don't get involved in the same things, we don't value the same things, we don't have the same desires. God made each of us unique, and success is going to look differently for each of us. Success as a parent, success as an employee, success as a spouse, and success as an individual. Once we let go of the way "it should be" and "the way it was" and embrace the individuality God gifted all of us with, we can begin to be truly happy.
Is it me, or is that such a relief? A huge weight off my shoulders I didn't even realize I was carrying. I know I can't be the only one that tries to do something in some way just because someone else is doing it or because that's they only way I've seen it done.
The girl that came to church today travels all over singing. She was sharing her story, about how she was raised the daughter of a minister and they lived pretty meagerly. However, she happened to marry someone very successful financially. He owned his own car dealership. But one day they felt a calling to do something different. And because of that calling, he sold his car dealership, they sold their big house, and they now run a group for underprivillages kids age 9-12. She gives them voice lessons and her husband spends time with the boys teaching them about character. In fact, he went from owning his own car dealership to detailing cars to survive. He recently turned down a 150K dollar job offer because they wouldn't be able to continue their mission.
Yet, other people probably viewed them as successful before. I'm sure a lot of people thought they were crazy when they sold everything and again when he turned down that job. But, contrary to what we hear on earth think, money isn't what makes you successful.
Think about it...when they get to meet Jesus and he asks them what they did with their time...think about what a story they will have. God has blessed them for what they have done and the sacrifices they have made, and they are happier now than ever.
The pastor today was talking about his father who is also a pastor and he was talking about how different their "styles" are. He could have tried to go out and preach the way his father did, but God didn't give him the same personality and abilities. He gave him his own unique spiritual gifts. Dorrien's (our pastor's) goal is to get everyone involved because like anything, you get out of it what you put into it. He is all about inspiring change in every body's life.
I was doing looking at the church website this weekend and realized he got the calling to plant his own church in October 2006. Exactly when Gina was born. Interesting.
So...what are your gifts? Are you using them? Or are you just doing things they way you think they "should be done"? How will you answer Jesus' question???
And the pastor was discussing that he wants this church, our church, to be about changing lives. To get involved with each other to "do life" and make it better...and inspire real changes.
But considering the bible says we were not put here to be served, but to serve, it's not just about those of us inside the church. It's about reaching out to others and helping to change their lives.
So, one day when you're hanging out with Jesus and he asks you "what did you do with your time on earth", what will you be able to say??
If you're anything like me, it made me realize that much like the song that was sung today said "I've wasted so much time, but I want to turn it all around".
I want to set a vision for my life...who I'd like to be as a wife and a mother, what I believe success is, and launch a plan to get there. I want to not be afraid to try something "in case it doesn't work". I don't want to believe the lies the enemy tells me. My eyes are slowly opening to what happiness means to me, and I want to learn to enjoy every minute. I'm going to stop saying I'll "try" to do something and say I *will* do something. You either do or you do not. There is no try. Even if you fail, you still did it.
As I was sitting there listening, I realized I don't want to limit myself to doing something a specific way or being a certain way because that's how someone else did it. It doesn't matter how our friends, our neighbors, our siblings, our parents, or anyone else does something. We don't need to parent the same way, be a spouse the same way, or reach for the same level of success. We are all different...we don't get involved in the same things, we don't value the same things, we don't have the same desires. God made each of us unique, and success is going to look differently for each of us. Success as a parent, success as an employee, success as a spouse, and success as an individual. Once we let go of the way "it should be" and "the way it was" and embrace the individuality God gifted all of us with, we can begin to be truly happy.
Is it me, or is that such a relief? A huge weight off my shoulders I didn't even realize I was carrying. I know I can't be the only one that tries to do something in some way just because someone else is doing it or because that's they only way I've seen it done.
The girl that came to church today travels all over singing. She was sharing her story, about how she was raised the daughter of a minister and they lived pretty meagerly. However, she happened to marry someone very successful financially. He owned his own car dealership. But one day they felt a calling to do something different. And because of that calling, he sold his car dealership, they sold their big house, and they now run a group for underprivillages kids age 9-12. She gives them voice lessons and her husband spends time with the boys teaching them about character. In fact, he went from owning his own car dealership to detailing cars to survive. He recently turned down a 150K dollar job offer because they wouldn't be able to continue their mission.
Yet, other people probably viewed them as successful before. I'm sure a lot of people thought they were crazy when they sold everything and again when he turned down that job. But, contrary to what we hear on earth think, money isn't what makes you successful.
Think about it...when they get to meet Jesus and he asks them what they did with their time...think about what a story they will have. God has blessed them for what they have done and the sacrifices they have made, and they are happier now than ever.
The pastor today was talking about his father who is also a pastor and he was talking about how different their "styles" are. He could have tried to go out and preach the way his father did, but God didn't give him the same personality and abilities. He gave him his own unique spiritual gifts. Dorrien's (our pastor's) goal is to get everyone involved because like anything, you get out of it what you put into it. He is all about inspiring change in every body's life.
I was doing looking at the church website this weekend and realized he got the calling to plant his own church in October 2006. Exactly when Gina was born. Interesting.
So...what are your gifts? Are you using them? Or are you just doing things they way you think they "should be done"? How will you answer Jesus' question???
Saturday, September 6, 2008
A fun day!
So we decided to go downtown today and just hang out. It was perfect weather for it...not too hot or humid. Both of the kids really enjoyed it, and so did we. We then went to Sonic for dinner. Myles got such a kick out of them wearing roller skates.
It's so fun to share things you enjoy with your kids and to see them through their eyes.
Tomorrow we have church, grocery shopping and cleaning to do, but we're making the most of our family time while we still have our weekends free.
I have a few cute pictures, but will have to wait to share those until I can get them downloaded.
Hope you're all having a fun weekend too!!
It's so fun to share things you enjoy with your kids and to see them through their eyes.
Tomorrow we have church, grocery shopping and cleaning to do, but we're making the most of our family time while we still have our weekends free.
I have a few cute pictures, but will have to wait to share those until I can get them downloaded.
Hope you're all having a fun weekend too!!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
A call from Myles' teacher
Myles' teacher called me tonight to discuss his first day and his sensory integration issues. Her youngest son (now grown) has the same thing, so it was very interesting to talk to her, and nice to know his teacher really "gets it".
Myles told her he was hungry today, and she was concerned about just how hungry he acted. Unfortunately he's still having issues eating, but it gave me the chance to discuss that with her and get her experienced point of view.
I think she's going to be really good for him, and I also feel very confident that he is yearning for the routine and structure school brings to his life. It brings a whole new set of things for him to worry about, but at the same time, I'm hoping it gets him back on track.
He and I talked tonight about making him a calendar, and we really need to do that. It helps him to know the plan.
This teacher doesn't seem as "sweet and tender" as Mrs. Stewart was (and who knows, maybe we'll just always have a soft spot for her as his first teacher), but I think she is his teacher for a reason. She isn't who he was initially assigned to, but due to a few events (that I know happened for a reason) he was changed to her class.
I know she's very interested in communicating with me and working as a team to discuss any issues that may arise at school. Although she'll probably rarely see any, it's nice to know she understands first hand what SID is all about.
Myles told her he was hungry today, and she was concerned about just how hungry he acted. Unfortunately he's still having issues eating, but it gave me the chance to discuss that with her and get her experienced point of view.
I think she's going to be really good for him, and I also feel very confident that he is yearning for the routine and structure school brings to his life. It brings a whole new set of things for him to worry about, but at the same time, I'm hoping it gets him back on track.
He and I talked tonight about making him a calendar, and we really need to do that. It helps him to know the plan.
This teacher doesn't seem as "sweet and tender" as Mrs. Stewart was (and who knows, maybe we'll just always have a soft spot for her as his first teacher), but I think she is his teacher for a reason. She isn't who he was initially assigned to, but due to a few events (that I know happened for a reason) he was changed to her class.
I know she's very interested in communicating with me and working as a team to discuss any issues that may arise at school. Although she'll probably rarely see any, it's nice to know she understands first hand what SID is all about.
First night of bible study
I joined a Beth Moore bible study through church, and tonight was the first night. It went well, and I think I'll like it and get a lot out of it. It's about 18 or 19 people, so bigger than I thought.
I ended up having to leave early though because Gina drank too much before we left and totally flooded her diaper and I didn't have one with me. Poor planner, I know. I didn't miss too much though.
I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone better, learning more, and growing closer to God.
It's my first small group experience, so I'm just proud of myself for stepping outside of my comfort zone.
I have to say that God has been really good to us. I've already learned and grown so much as a person, as a christian, and as a wife and mother. We're not even totally "out of" our situation yet, but I already know that we were meant to go trough it and I'm so happy we have. I already know things will be so much better for us and it will forever have a positive impact on my life. We received a huge blessing yesterday, and it just proved what I alreay know. That the things that are meant to happen will and that they happen when they are supposed to. I am a better, more confident, more wise, more peaceful, more faithful person, and that is worth everything we've gone through and more.
I ended up having to leave early though because Gina drank too much before we left and totally flooded her diaper and I didn't have one with me. Poor planner, I know. I didn't miss too much though.
I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone better, learning more, and growing closer to God.
It's my first small group experience, so I'm just proud of myself for stepping outside of my comfort zone.
I have to say that God has been really good to us. I've already learned and grown so much as a person, as a christian, and as a wife and mother. We're not even totally "out of" our situation yet, but I already know that we were meant to go trough it and I'm so happy we have. I already know things will be so much better for us and it will forever have a positive impact on my life. We received a huge blessing yesterday, and it just proved what I alreay know. That the things that are meant to happen will and that they happen when they are supposed to. I am a better, more confident, more wise, more peaceful, more faithful person, and that is worth everything we've gone through and more.
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