considering I haven't really done anything. Don't you hate days like that when you're just exhausted for no good reason?
It's another beautiful day here today. We went to church and the kids both had a good time. Gina even walked right into her class to play with the other little girls, and Myles went to his room without even so much as a good bye. That is really a good feeling.
We then went and had a nutritious lunch at McDonalds. lol Myles and I went to Target to return yet another radio that I couldn't get to play K-Love at work. I just got diapers and wipes instead. Can't go wrong with those. Although I'm not so sure why I spend my Mother's Day present on stuff for the kids (besides a pedometer and some new make up I tried).
I was hoping we'd get more cleaning accomplished this weekend than what we have, but I'm having a hard time getting motivated. We really wanted to get a bunch of stuff cleaned up from the basement before the trash man picks up tomorrow, but we'll see. At the beginning of the week I need to call someone to come pick some of the toys and clothes up, but I guess first we have to get it all upstairs and out to the garage. That should be fun.
Derrick has a big interview on Tuesday that would be a great opportunity, so please keep your fingers and toes crossed and keep us in your prayers. We're really hoping June is the month for us.
Well, I hear Myles outside talking to the girls that live behind us that I don't like, and they are inviting themselves into our house. Gina is crying because I won't let her outside with out me, so I better run.
Hope you're all having a good day! God Bless.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
What a beautiful day!
It was such a pretty day here today! I can't believe how cool it still is considering this is Memorial Day Weekend, but I'm not complaining. I'm sure our electric bill will reflect the fact we haven't needed air yet, which is nice!
Myles and I met his teacher, Mrs. Stewart, at school briefly today to get his back pack back. When we went to his party for his last day of school I totally forgot about it. She was sweet enough to call and meet me at the school to return it. I'm so glad I did that too, because there were some really cute things in there that represented his first year of preschool. We have already started a memory box for this first year of school to keep some of the craft projects that he's done, and now we can add his Preschool Diploma, a book that represents each of the shapes they studied every month, and a book of self-portraits Myles drew each month. It's so cute.
Derrick and Myles then went to Harbon Park to play soccer. Myles is SUCH a daddy's boy right now, wanting to go everywhere he goes and do everything he does. It's sweet to watch. It's nice that Derrick is home on the weekends to spend so much time with us now, especially because with our opposite schedules we barely see him through out the week.
Overall it's been a really good day, but not nearly as productive as I had planned. We wanted to work on getting the basement cleaned out and start getting some stuff thrown out/donated, and we haven't even touched it. Oh well. Guess I shouldn't focus on that too much since it's supposed to be a fun, holiday weekend.
Right now both of the kids are asleep and Derrick is out working in the yard. I'm trying to enjoy some quiet time alone, but I'm feeling sick to my stomach. I think I've had way too many sweets today. Ugh. So anyway, I'm off to relax for a little while. Hope you all had a good Saturday!
Myles and I met his teacher, Mrs. Stewart, at school briefly today to get his back pack back. When we went to his party for his last day of school I totally forgot about it. She was sweet enough to call and meet me at the school to return it. I'm so glad I did that too, because there were some really cute things in there that represented his first year of preschool. We have already started a memory box for this first year of school to keep some of the craft projects that he's done, and now we can add his Preschool Diploma, a book that represents each of the shapes they studied every month, and a book of self-portraits Myles drew each month. It's so cute.
Derrick and Myles then went to Harbon Park to play soccer. Myles is SUCH a daddy's boy right now, wanting to go everywhere he goes and do everything he does. It's sweet to watch. It's nice that Derrick is home on the weekends to spend so much time with us now, especially because with our opposite schedules we barely see him through out the week.
Overall it's been a really good day, but not nearly as productive as I had planned. We wanted to work on getting the basement cleaned out and start getting some stuff thrown out/donated, and we haven't even touched it. Oh well. Guess I shouldn't focus on that too much since it's supposed to be a fun, holiday weekend.
Right now both of the kids are asleep and Derrick is out working in the yard. I'm trying to enjoy some quiet time alone, but I'm feeling sick to my stomach. I think I've had way too many sweets today. Ugh. So anyway, I'm off to relax for a little while. Hope you all had a good Saturday!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Some pictures
These are from the trip we took to the Air Force museum before Stacey left, and include her two boys, Eli and Chase, and also a few from Myles' last day of preschool. More on that in another post. I should add that Myles took the pictures of Chase, Gina, Eli and the super duper close up of himself. lol
By the way, in the picture of Myles with his school friends, check out the girl sitting next to him. That cracks me up!
By the way, in the picture of Myles with his school friends, check out the girl sitting next to him. That cracks me up!
Monday, May 19, 2008
Monday, Monday.
I've had a good day so far. I went into work this morning for a few hours, and I actually kind of enjoy doing the half day. I'm able to get out of there and still enjoy my day, plus it gets me up and showered and all that good stuff.
Gina had an appt today with her therapy people and the boys stayed home with her for that. They made a list of words she says and just want us to add on to it over the next couple of weeks as we hear new things. I'm not so sure she's actually saying all the words they wrote down, but maybe I'm not giving her enough credit.
Derrick said they were letting her play with play do, but kept handing her a plastic fork to poke holes in it, and she kept trying to eat the play do with the fork. I agree that'd be a little confusing since she's just learning to use utensils right now. He said it was a good appt though and the next time a speech therapist will come out to evaluate where she is and provide any support. Really I think she's totally fine, but just feel safer having them come periodically to keep track of everything.
Derrick didn't have any interviews today, so we actually got to spend a couple of hours together before he went to work, which was nice.
We did go to the new church again this weekend, Fairfield Church of Christ. I think we both liked it a little better this time. Both of the kids seemed happy and comfortable there. Gina went in the room without even crying...just a little pouty lip. But when we picked her up she was sitting at the picnic table having a pretend tea party just as happy as could be.
Myles went right up to his room, told them his name, and went on it. The guy even picked him up gave him a high 5, and Myles spoke to him. You all know how unusual that can be for my shy, akward Myles.
We ran into a couple of people we know as well, which was nice. One was our neighbor, and the other was one of my previous back up babysitters that watched Myles for about 3 weeks at one time. It was great to see her and her kids again and for her to see Myles and Gina. Gina is the age Myles was when she watched him!!
Our situation right now is certainly not ideal, but there are some upsides to it. I really think God put us in a situation where we'd have to strongly re-evaluate a lot of things, and that's what we're doing. It's nice to have my quiet alone time at night to do my devotionals and journaling, and the time together on the weekends is such a blessing. Myles has really enjoyed having Derrick here more, and I do too since it means I can sleep a little later and usually get breakfast cooked.
Hopefully he'll end up with a new job soon that allows us to have similar benefits.
Talk to you all soon!
Gina had an appt today with her therapy people and the boys stayed home with her for that. They made a list of words she says and just want us to add on to it over the next couple of weeks as we hear new things. I'm not so sure she's actually saying all the words they wrote down, but maybe I'm not giving her enough credit.
Derrick said they were letting her play with play do, but kept handing her a plastic fork to poke holes in it, and she kept trying to eat the play do with the fork. I agree that'd be a little confusing since she's just learning to use utensils right now. He said it was a good appt though and the next time a speech therapist will come out to evaluate where she is and provide any support. Really I think she's totally fine, but just feel safer having them come periodically to keep track of everything.
Derrick didn't have any interviews today, so we actually got to spend a couple of hours together before he went to work, which was nice.
We did go to the new church again this weekend, Fairfield Church of Christ. I think we both liked it a little better this time. Both of the kids seemed happy and comfortable there. Gina went in the room without even crying...just a little pouty lip. But when we picked her up she was sitting at the picnic table having a pretend tea party just as happy as could be.
Myles went right up to his room, told them his name, and went on it. The guy even picked him up gave him a high 5, and Myles spoke to him. You all know how unusual that can be for my shy, akward Myles.
We ran into a couple of people we know as well, which was nice. One was our neighbor, and the other was one of my previous back up babysitters that watched Myles for about 3 weeks at one time. It was great to see her and her kids again and for her to see Myles and Gina. Gina is the age Myles was when she watched him!!
Our situation right now is certainly not ideal, but there are some upsides to it. I really think God put us in a situation where we'd have to strongly re-evaluate a lot of things, and that's what we're doing. It's nice to have my quiet alone time at night to do my devotionals and journaling, and the time together on the weekends is such a blessing. Myles has really enjoyed having Derrick here more, and I do too since it means I can sleep a little later and usually get breakfast cooked.
Hopefully he'll end up with a new job soon that allows us to have similar benefits.
Talk to you all soon!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Another week flies by!
I can't believe it's Thursday already! With Derrick working second shift, my days are just flying by. It's a little strange to be alone with the kids all evening and going to bed in an empty house! In the beginning, I have to admit it was slightly nice, probably because it was new, QUIET, and I looked at it as alone time.
The newness is wearing off though. Although, I guess I should be careful what I say, as the hours have worked out so well for Derrick to do his main job hunt since he has almost all day. He only has one more week to work second shift, and then he'll have to switch to first. Hopefully he'll still be able to get in enough hours, and have time for all the interviews/meetings.
I know these have been long days for both of us. I'm so proud of my husband and not only how hard he's working, but how positive he's staying while doing it. He's always been a night owl, and now that he's working until 1 am anyway, he often doesn't go to bed until 3 or 4 am. Then he gets up when he hears Myles awake and has a hard time falling back to sleep knowing everything he has to do. He's had so many appointments with recruiters, interviews and other things to take care of, which is great on one hand, but also exhausing to do all day and then go into work. And then to top it off, after all that, he'll be staying home with the kids all day tomorrow. I don't know how he does it all on such little sleep.
We're both thinking positively about his career job search and are hoping the right thing comes along soon. The big problem we're running into is a lot of people are wanting him to relocate. As most of you know, that'd be really hard for me. So keep praying that the right job...with the right hours, and really right pay...comes along soon. Derrick and I will both be SO appreciative and look at things so much differently now. We've both learned a lot.
Thanks to all of you for all of your support and kind words to keep us lifted up when we're down. I'm lucky to have a family I can count on.
Well, Gina is sleeping and I'm gonna try to get Myles to go to sleep here soon too so I can continue reading the book for our book club. And enjoy that quiet time!!!
Hope you all have a good night!!
The newness is wearing off though. Although, I guess I should be careful what I say, as the hours have worked out so well for Derrick to do his main job hunt since he has almost all day. He only has one more week to work second shift, and then he'll have to switch to first. Hopefully he'll still be able to get in enough hours, and have time for all the interviews/meetings.
I know these have been long days for both of us. I'm so proud of my husband and not only how hard he's working, but how positive he's staying while doing it. He's always been a night owl, and now that he's working until 1 am anyway, he often doesn't go to bed until 3 or 4 am. Then he gets up when he hears Myles awake and has a hard time falling back to sleep knowing everything he has to do. He's had so many appointments with recruiters, interviews and other things to take care of, which is great on one hand, but also exhausing to do all day and then go into work. And then to top it off, after all that, he'll be staying home with the kids all day tomorrow. I don't know how he does it all on such little sleep.
We're both thinking positively about his career job search and are hoping the right thing comes along soon. The big problem we're running into is a lot of people are wanting him to relocate. As most of you know, that'd be really hard for me. So keep praying that the right job...with the right hours, and really right pay...comes along soon. Derrick and I will both be SO appreciative and look at things so much differently now. We've both learned a lot.
Thanks to all of you for all of your support and kind words to keep us lifted up when we're down. I'm lucky to have a family I can count on.
Well, Gina is sleeping and I'm gonna try to get Myles to go to sleep here soon too so I can continue reading the book for our book club. And enjoy that quiet time!!!
Hope you all have a good night!!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
An update on our "church hopping"
This morning we went to Fairfield Church of Christ. My sitter grew up going to that church, and her family still does.
I cannot say we fell in love with it at first sight. However, we did both really like it. I think this one is at least worth devoting some time to before we decide for sure.
Both of the kids did great. When we picked Gina up we caught her still having a tea party with one of the care takers. It was so cute! They said she did great, which is not very common for her in a new place, so that was very encouraging.
We then went to pick up Myles. One of the teachers in there was a man, and he told us that he and Myles had bonded. Myles agreed (silently) and gave him a high five on the way out. Also a pleasant surprise and reaction for Mr. Slow to Warm Up.
The sermon was much more similar to John Wesley, which was a good thing, especially for Derrick. Today probably wasn't a "typical" Sunday for them since it was Mother's Day, but we did both enjoy it. It's always a little odd and uncomfortable being in a new place, not familiar with the structure of it all.
I would ultimately like to connect with other people my age, and I was a little surprised at how many older people were there (I don't mean older as in "older than us"...I mean older, like in their 70's), but there were some younger couples there as well. They also offer a lot of small groups, and that's probably where we'll connect.
Everyone was very warm and welcoming, and the fact the kids had a great time goes a long way with me.
So that's our update for now!
I cannot say we fell in love with it at first sight. However, we did both really like it. I think this one is at least worth devoting some time to before we decide for sure.
Both of the kids did great. When we picked Gina up we caught her still having a tea party with one of the care takers. It was so cute! They said she did great, which is not very common for her in a new place, so that was very encouraging.
We then went to pick up Myles. One of the teachers in there was a man, and he told us that he and Myles had bonded. Myles agreed (silently) and gave him a high five on the way out. Also a pleasant surprise and reaction for Mr. Slow to Warm Up.
The sermon was much more similar to John Wesley, which was a good thing, especially for Derrick. Today probably wasn't a "typical" Sunday for them since it was Mother's Day, but we did both enjoy it. It's always a little odd and uncomfortable being in a new place, not familiar with the structure of it all.
I would ultimately like to connect with other people my age, and I was a little surprised at how many older people were there (I don't mean older as in "older than us"...I mean older, like in their 70's), but there were some younger couples there as well. They also offer a lot of small groups, and that's probably where we'll connect.
Everyone was very warm and welcoming, and the fact the kids had a great time goes a long way with me.
So that's our update for now!
A couple sweet moments to remember:
Yesterday we rented a truck from Budget rental trucks, much to Myles delight. As the kids and I waited in the car for Derrick to complete the paperwork, Myles looked around and asked which truck we were going to get.
I pointed out the rental truck parked directly in front of us, and he said "that one? We're gonna get the "B" truck"? I had to smile as he noticed the word Budget on the truck. My sweet boy, so proud he recognizes his letters, couldn't wait for us to take home the "B" truck.
As we were getting ready for church this morning, Myles saw Derrick shaving. Myles asked if he could have "some shave". As I watched Derrick rub shaving cream on Myles' face and wipe it off stroke by stroke with a wash cloth, I wanted to get my camera to take a picture, but it was too sweet to walk away. They were both so happy.
Then, realizing we must be going somewhere, Myles said "Are we going to get a "B" truck again today? :)
Gina has learned to say no by shaking her head back and forth. It doesn't sound like that big of a deal, but for some reason she can crack all of us up when we ask her a question and her little head full of curls shakes back and forth. It's just so cute. That girl has some looks that could make a grown man cry.
Myles asked her if he could have a kiss, and like a true girl, she shook her head back and forth to say "no". Myles laughed and said "mommy, she's a-larry-ous". Hearing that made me crack up. Yes, Myles, she is hillarious. That's one mispronunciation I just can't correct yet.
These are the moments that seem too few and far between when we get caught up in the details of life. But when we actually allow ourselves to slow down and enjoy our lives instead of just going through the motions to get *through* each day, we can recognize and cherish these moments as they happen.
Thank you God for making me a mother. I often say to people "I love my kids more than you can imagine". But I can't say that to you. Not only can you imagine how much I love them, you know *exactly* how much. And you love me, your child, even more.
Thank you God for your love and for providing us with a day to slow down and enjoy some sweet moments together as a family. Please continue to draw me closer to you so that I may not only learn more about you, but so that I can also teach my children about you. I hope that by the time my children are my age they know you infinitely better than I do now.
Hope you all had a good day also!
Ally
I pointed out the rental truck parked directly in front of us, and he said "that one? We're gonna get the "B" truck"? I had to smile as he noticed the word Budget on the truck. My sweet boy, so proud he recognizes his letters, couldn't wait for us to take home the "B" truck.
As we were getting ready for church this morning, Myles saw Derrick shaving. Myles asked if he could have "some shave". As I watched Derrick rub shaving cream on Myles' face and wipe it off stroke by stroke with a wash cloth, I wanted to get my camera to take a picture, but it was too sweet to walk away. They were both so happy.
Then, realizing we must be going somewhere, Myles said "Are we going to get a "B" truck again today? :)
Gina has learned to say no by shaking her head back and forth. It doesn't sound like that big of a deal, but for some reason she can crack all of us up when we ask her a question and her little head full of curls shakes back and forth. It's just so cute. That girl has some looks that could make a grown man cry.
Myles asked her if he could have a kiss, and like a true girl, she shook her head back and forth to say "no". Myles laughed and said "mommy, she's a-larry-ous". Hearing that made me crack up. Yes, Myles, she is hillarious. That's one mispronunciation I just can't correct yet.
These are the moments that seem too few and far between when we get caught up in the details of life. But when we actually allow ourselves to slow down and enjoy our lives instead of just going through the motions to get *through* each day, we can recognize and cherish these moments as they happen.
Thank you God for making me a mother. I often say to people "I love my kids more than you can imagine". But I can't say that to you. Not only can you imagine how much I love them, you know *exactly* how much. And you love me, your child, even more.
Thank you God for your love and for providing us with a day to slow down and enjoy some sweet moments together as a family. Please continue to draw me closer to you so that I may not only learn more about you, but so that I can also teach my children about you. I hope that by the time my children are my age they know you infinitely better than I do now.
Hope you all had a good day also!
Ally
Happy Mother's Day 2008!
To all of those mother's out there, I hope you've had a blessed day!
I found a couple of poem's I really enjoyed I thought I'd share. I hope one of them speaks to you as they did me.
Mother's Love
Her love is like an island
In life's ocean, vast and wide
A peaceful, quiet shelter
From the wind, the rain, the tide.
'Tis bound on the north by Hope,
By Patience on the West,
By tender Counsel on the South
And on the East by Rest.
Above it like a beacon light
Shine Faith, and Truth, and Prayer;
And thro' the changing scenes of life
I find a haven there.
- Author Unknown
Real Mothers
Real Mothers don't eat quiche; they don't have time to make it.
Real Mothers know that their kitchen utensils are probably in the sandbox.
Real Mothers often have sticky floors, filthy ovens and happy kids.
Real Mothers know that dried playdough doesn't come out of shag carpet.
Real Mothers sometimes ask "why me?" and get their answer when a little voice says, "because I love you best."
Real Mothers know that a child's growth is not measured by height or years or grade. . .
It is marked by the progression of Mama to Mommy to Mother.
- Author Unknown.
God's Masterpiece Is Mother
God took the fragrance of a flower...
The majesty of a tree...
The gentleness of morning dew...
The calm of a quiet sea...
The beauty of the twilight hour...
The soul of a starry night...
The laughter of a rippling brook...
The grace of a bird in flight...
Then God fashioned from these things
A creation like no other,
And when his masterpiece was through
He called it simply - Mother.
- Herbert Farnham
Parents' Prayer
O Father, our hearts are filled
with a great happiness.
For you have seen fit
to bless us with a child.
You have sent us one of
your own little angels
to love and protect.
We are aware of the great
responsibility that is ours
and we are humble.
We realize the honor
you have bestowed upon us
and we are grateful.
Great that we may be
ever patient and loving,
living in such a way
as to set a shining example
for our little one.
And as we seek to set
those tiny feet upon the paths
of righteousness, be ever with us.
May our home be a place of love
and harmony where your Spirit
is ever present. And may
our child find you in each
activity of our family life.
Bless us, we pray,
and walk beside us through
all our days together. Amen.
- Norman Vincent Peale
These are the Years
These are the years, the gentle years,
the soft and sentimental years
when wee little fingers
reach and touch
and little eyes gaze
with wonder and trust,
when you love so tenderly
and so so much,
these are the gentle years.
These are the years, the rainbow years,
the quiet, walk-on-tiptoes years,
the years of laughter
and smiles and sighs
when both of you watch
with misty eyes
the tiny bed
where a cherub lies,
these are the rainbow years.
These are the years, the tender years,
the blissful, sweet-surrender years,
when your little treasure
from above
is the soul and purpose
and center of
your plans and dreams
and dearest love,
these are the tender years.
- Barbara Burrow
I found a couple of poem's I really enjoyed I thought I'd share. I hope one of them speaks to you as they did me.
Mother's Love
Her love is like an island
In life's ocean, vast and wide
A peaceful, quiet shelter
From the wind, the rain, the tide.
'Tis bound on the north by Hope,
By Patience on the West,
By tender Counsel on the South
And on the East by Rest.
Above it like a beacon light
Shine Faith, and Truth, and Prayer;
And thro' the changing scenes of life
I find a haven there.
- Author Unknown
Real Mothers
Real Mothers don't eat quiche; they don't have time to make it.
Real Mothers know that their kitchen utensils are probably in the sandbox.
Real Mothers often have sticky floors, filthy ovens and happy kids.
Real Mothers know that dried playdough doesn't come out of shag carpet.
Real Mothers sometimes ask "why me?" and get their answer when a little voice says, "because I love you best."
Real Mothers know that a child's growth is not measured by height or years or grade. . .
It is marked by the progression of Mama to Mommy to Mother.
- Author Unknown.
God's Masterpiece Is Mother
God took the fragrance of a flower...
The majesty of a tree...
The gentleness of morning dew...
The calm of a quiet sea...
The beauty of the twilight hour...
The soul of a starry night...
The laughter of a rippling brook...
The grace of a bird in flight...
Then God fashioned from these things
A creation like no other,
And when his masterpiece was through
He called it simply - Mother.
- Herbert Farnham
Parents' Prayer
O Father, our hearts are filled
with a great happiness.
For you have seen fit
to bless us with a child.
You have sent us one of
your own little angels
to love and protect.
We are aware of the great
responsibility that is ours
and we are humble.
We realize the honor
you have bestowed upon us
and we are grateful.
Great that we may be
ever patient and loving,
living in such a way
as to set a shining example
for our little one.
And as we seek to set
those tiny feet upon the paths
of righteousness, be ever with us.
May our home be a place of love
and harmony where your Spirit
is ever present. And may
our child find you in each
activity of our family life.
Bless us, we pray,
and walk beside us through
all our days together. Amen.
- Norman Vincent Peale
These are the Years
These are the years, the gentle years,
the soft and sentimental years
when wee little fingers
reach and touch
and little eyes gaze
with wonder and trust,
when you love so tenderly
and so so much,
these are the gentle years.
These are the years, the rainbow years,
the quiet, walk-on-tiptoes years,
the years of laughter
and smiles and sighs
when both of you watch
with misty eyes
the tiny bed
where a cherub lies,
these are the rainbow years.
These are the years, the tender years,
the blissful, sweet-surrender years,
when your little treasure
from above
is the soul and purpose
and center of
your plans and dreams
and dearest love,
these are the tender years.
- Barbara Burrow
Friday, May 9, 2008
A scare with Gina
Gina scared us today. She,for some still unknown reason, kept falling at the sitters yesterday. Not a normal "toddler fall" a straight back "I'm gonna faint" fall. I was trying to be calm, but when Cindy called and said she had just fallen straight back into her TV and hit her head, I decided to take her to the doctor.
He was very thorough and didn't see any immediate explanation (ear infection, etc), but also didn't see any obvious signs of concern (dialted pupils, etc).
So, he told me to keep an eye on it for now, but told me what signs to watch for and what signs meant come back to the doctor and which meant go straight to the ER. So of course I was very scared.
Mom watched her the rest of the day though, and she seemed to be fine. I still feel like she's 'waddling' more than normal (shifting her weight side to side a lot more than usual), and just falling in general more than she usually does, but maybe I'm just being paranoid.
The kids are both home with daddy today, and he also seems to think she is acting okay. I don't know if it's my mommy gut, or just extreme mommy worry, but I'm just not so sure.
I'm just hoping she doesn't do anything like this again, and I PRAY that I don't see any of the signs that he told me to watch for that meant head straight to the ER. If I do, Derrick might as well call 911 and request a double transport, because I'll be needing medical assistance myself.
It's amazing when our kids scare us how INTENSE our instincts and love for them become.
So some extra prayers for Gina would be much appreciated!!
He was very thorough and didn't see any immediate explanation (ear infection, etc), but also didn't see any obvious signs of concern (dialted pupils, etc).
So, he told me to keep an eye on it for now, but told me what signs to watch for and what signs meant come back to the doctor and which meant go straight to the ER. So of course I was very scared.
Mom watched her the rest of the day though, and she seemed to be fine. I still feel like she's 'waddling' more than normal (shifting her weight side to side a lot more than usual), and just falling in general more than she usually does, but maybe I'm just being paranoid.
The kids are both home with daddy today, and he also seems to think she is acting okay. I don't know if it's my mommy gut, or just extreme mommy worry, but I'm just not so sure.
I'm just hoping she doesn't do anything like this again, and I PRAY that I don't see any of the signs that he told me to watch for that meant head straight to the ER. If I do, Derrick might as well call 911 and request a double transport, because I'll be needing medical assistance myself.
It's amazing when our kids scare us how INTENSE our instincts and love for them become.
So some extra prayers for Gina would be much appreciated!!
Monday, May 5, 2008
More updates and prayers
as we all know life in the Lawary family is anything but boring.
Let's see. Life has had a lot of twist and turns for us lately.
We have decided that the Vineyard is not the right place for us, but after doing some more investigating and talking to people, I think we found a church that will be what we need. We are going to go for the first time this Sunday. I have prayed that God will lead us to our new church home, so hopefully this will be it. I'm looking forward to getting settled and plugged in lately.
I have been continuing to read GOOTP and love it. I've learned so much. I was listening to K-Love today (which, btw, Kim I never answered you...K-Love is my favorite channel!!) and it was talking about how just as the middle of the road is a dangerous place for animals, it is for Christians as well. God wants us to be all in or all out. You can't hang out in the middle, choosing when you call on God, choosing when you listen to him, choosing to just spend an hour a week with him and think you're going to really know him and have a relationship. I just love that analogy. I want to be "all in" and am getting closer and closer to that every day.
Not all of you know this, but Derrick is now done with Waffle House and will be working for Kopco 2nd shift temporarily until he is able to replace his career position. Please keep him and our entire family in your prayers for him to be led to the right position and for many doors to open for us. We are so thankful to even have the opportunity for this to be a possibility for him, and neither of us take that lightly.
Derrick and I have also been praying for God to not only bring us closer to him, but also to grow closer to each other. My eyes have been opened lately and I've realized how far we've wandered away from each other...just slowly, over a period of time...until we got to a point where our relationship was too much like a "business" and not focused on love and respect as much as it should be. We want to put God first in our lives, and ask him to help us do the work that needs to be done to totally reunite us and make us as happy as we both deserve to be, and also the best possible role models we can be.
Lastly, we want to completely open ourselves up to do what needs to be done to have financial security and peace. It may not be easy, and I know we may not get the answers I want, but clearly we haven't done well when left to our own devices, so it's obviously time to let God steer that ship for a minute. It seems like right now, every time there is an "up" there is an equal or greater "down". But I know that if we have our eyes, hearts and ears open he will guide us to do what needs to be done, and with a huge leap of faith and a lot of hard work, we will get to where we need to be.
So forgive me for not blogging as much as I could be or for not commenting on other blogs like I'd like too. Right now I'm going through a period of change and it's exciting but exhausting, so bear (bare?..holy cow I'm tired) with me. I'm trying to spend my "free time" reading, journaling, etc so that I can do the work on myself that needs to be done. I know you all understand!
I love you all. Off to do my jornal and GO TO BED!!! It's been another (too) fast weekend and I know I'm going to be exhausted in the morning!
Let's see. Life has had a lot of twist and turns for us lately.
We have decided that the Vineyard is not the right place for us, but after doing some more investigating and talking to people, I think we found a church that will be what we need. We are going to go for the first time this Sunday. I have prayed that God will lead us to our new church home, so hopefully this will be it. I'm looking forward to getting settled and plugged in lately.
I have been continuing to read GOOTP and love it. I've learned so much. I was listening to K-Love today (which, btw, Kim I never answered you...K-Love is my favorite channel!!) and it was talking about how just as the middle of the road is a dangerous place for animals, it is for Christians as well. God wants us to be all in or all out. You can't hang out in the middle, choosing when you call on God, choosing when you listen to him, choosing to just spend an hour a week with him and think you're going to really know him and have a relationship. I just love that analogy. I want to be "all in" and am getting closer and closer to that every day.
Not all of you know this, but Derrick is now done with Waffle House and will be working for Kopco 2nd shift temporarily until he is able to replace his career position. Please keep him and our entire family in your prayers for him to be led to the right position and for many doors to open for us. We are so thankful to even have the opportunity for this to be a possibility for him, and neither of us take that lightly.
Derrick and I have also been praying for God to not only bring us closer to him, but also to grow closer to each other. My eyes have been opened lately and I've realized how far we've wandered away from each other...just slowly, over a period of time...until we got to a point where our relationship was too much like a "business" and not focused on love and respect as much as it should be. We want to put God first in our lives, and ask him to help us do the work that needs to be done to totally reunite us and make us as happy as we both deserve to be, and also the best possible role models we can be.
Lastly, we want to completely open ourselves up to do what needs to be done to have financial security and peace. It may not be easy, and I know we may not get the answers I want, but clearly we haven't done well when left to our own devices, so it's obviously time to let God steer that ship for a minute. It seems like right now, every time there is an "up" there is an equal or greater "down". But I know that if we have our eyes, hearts and ears open he will guide us to do what needs to be done, and with a huge leap of faith and a lot of hard work, we will get to where we need to be.
So forgive me for not blogging as much as I could be or for not commenting on other blogs like I'd like too. Right now I'm going through a period of change and it's exciting but exhausting, so bear (bare?..holy cow I'm tired) with me. I'm trying to spend my "free time" reading, journaling, etc so that I can do the work on myself that needs to be done. I know you all understand!
I love you all. Off to do my jornal and GO TO BED!!! It's been another (too) fast weekend and I know I'm going to be exhausted in the morning!
Who keeps stealing my time?
Seriously??!! I thought I had only missed one night of blogging. Clearly I was wrong.
I thought I had only missed 2 days of doing my prayer journal, yet before last night, the most recent date was April 28th. Someone must have ripped some pages out, because that just doens't seem possible.
And how is it possible that Stacey is leaving in just days?! There's no way she's been here 2 years. We were able to get together yesterday up in Dayton and again today for dinner. I was too sad to even cry when I hugged her good bye. The biggest part of me is still in denial that she's leaving, as I have been since the day she told me. If I don't believe it, it won't really happen.
Stacey, thank you so much. You have touched my heart and forever changed my life. I know our friendship will endure and continue to grow through phone calls. I just hate that Myles and Eli won't see each other very often anymore, and that Chase and Gina won't be able to hold hands (unless we can come up with a plot now to get them married when they grow up) lol.
I love you Stacey. Thank you for blessing me and teaching me so much. I hope time continues to pass quickly until we are able to get together again soon.
I thought I had only missed 2 days of doing my prayer journal, yet before last night, the most recent date was April 28th. Someone must have ripped some pages out, because that just doens't seem possible.
And how is it possible that Stacey is leaving in just days?! There's no way she's been here 2 years. We were able to get together yesterday up in Dayton and again today for dinner. I was too sad to even cry when I hugged her good bye. The biggest part of me is still in denial that she's leaving, as I have been since the day she told me. If I don't believe it, it won't really happen.
Stacey, thank you so much. You have touched my heart and forever changed my life. I know our friendship will endure and continue to grow through phone calls. I just hate that Myles and Eli won't see each other very often anymore, and that Chase and Gina won't be able to hold hands (unless we can come up with a plot now to get them married when they grow up) lol.
I love you Stacey. Thank you for blessing me and teaching me so much. I hope time continues to pass quickly until we are able to get together again soon.
Friday, May 2, 2008
A long week
I'm glad this is Friday and the work week is over. It's been a long and emotional week, and I'm looking forward to getting the kids to sleep early so I can too!
We're thinking of going to see Stacey in Dayton this Sunday, and then hopefully meeting her and her family for dinner Monday night. She now has less than 2 weeks left before she moves, so we're trying to get in as many visits as possible. I'm really going to miss her, but I also know we'll be in regular contact!
Hope all of you had a good day! Take care.
We're thinking of going to see Stacey in Dayton this Sunday, and then hopefully meeting her and her family for dinner Monday night. She now has less than 2 weeks left before she moves, so we're trying to get in as many visits as possible. I'm really going to miss her, but I also know we'll be in regular contact!
Hope all of you had a good day! Take care.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
More of life's lessons
1. I have learned that although my tendancy when things go wrong is to become filled with anxiety, stress and fear, those emotions only serve to make you miserable and keep you deep in a pit. They zap the energy you need to actually think clearly and work *through* the situation! I am actually learning to be able to control the feelings I have, which is huge.
2. I have learned that through faith and hard work you really can change your situation.
3. I have learned that when you reach out to those who love you, even when it's hard and your pride makes it difficult, your community really will support you and lift you up. God wants us to choose our friends wisely so that we have a network of people around us that are able to give us strength and support.
4. I have learned that I love contemporary christian music and now listen to it in my car all the time!
5. I have learned that when you are feeling the most down, depressed, sad, tired, etc and don't feel like you are able to pray, that is when you need to pray the most.
6. I have learned that if you have faith and ask God to take the burden you are carrying from you, that he really will. If you just let him. You have to be willing to actually let it go and trust that he'll take care of you.
7. I have learned that I had a void in my life I didn't even know existed until I began filling it with the only thing that CAN fill it...God.
And on a more personal, funny level:
8. I have learned that even though a 4 year old boy looks like he's totally into his cartoon, he still hears...and understands...every word you and your husband are saying.
9. I have learned that an 18 month old girl is already very capable of charming her way out of trouble with a look and a kiss.
10. I have learned I love my family more every day.
2. I have learned that through faith and hard work you really can change your situation.
3. I have learned that when you reach out to those who love you, even when it's hard and your pride makes it difficult, your community really will support you and lift you up. God wants us to choose our friends wisely so that we have a network of people around us that are able to give us strength and support.
4. I have learned that I love contemporary christian music and now listen to it in my car all the time!
5. I have learned that when you are feeling the most down, depressed, sad, tired, etc and don't feel like you are able to pray, that is when you need to pray the most.
6. I have learned that if you have faith and ask God to take the burden you are carrying from you, that he really will. If you just let him. You have to be willing to actually let it go and trust that he'll take care of you.
7. I have learned that I had a void in my life I didn't even know existed until I began filling it with the only thing that CAN fill it...God.
And on a more personal, funny level:
8. I have learned that even though a 4 year old boy looks like he's totally into his cartoon, he still hears...and understands...every word you and your husband are saying.
9. I have learned that an 18 month old girl is already very capable of charming her way out of trouble with a look and a kiss.
10. I have learned I love my family more every day.
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